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    Since childhood you have been hammered into Verbal Reality, where words prevail, and the experience disappears once you have named the thing.


    There is another reality...

    Experiential Reality

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  • What Verbal Reality Looks Like... (XPERREAL.01)

    Instead of sharing in your wondrous, wordless, wide-open perspectives, people pushed objects into your face and said, This is a ball. See? Ball! B-A-L-L. Can you say that? Ball! As soon as you speak your first words you are finally recognized as joining the human race.

  • Verbal vs. Experiential Reality

    Verbal Reality

    Modern culture taught us to be, move, speak, learn, experiment from our mind (our Box) which is a place of knowing.The place of knowing is full with concepts, ideas, thoughts, conclusions, assumptions and stories that mostly other people have put there.


    Questioning the place of knowing is questioning the foundation of the existence of modern culture because as Rousseau said better than most "I think therefore I am". Therefore if I stop thinking, if I stop having concepts, ideas, thoughts, conclusions, assumptions and stories, I am not. I die. It is hard wired in us that way.


    Therefore, we:

    Are in conformity with the forms of being that are known and shown around you

    (meaning be dead, be numb, be adaptive).

    Speak from what you already know.

    Learn new ideas that are not contradictory to ideas you already know.

    Experiment to find the same results.

    So as to never Not Be.


    It is contrary to our survival instinct to go beyond the realm of our mind. However, there lies the true possibilities of living full out.


    The assumption "I think therefore I am" is only accurate in Verbal Reality. Verbal reality is everything that we can understand and there can name. In verbal reality, when we name something, we understand it, we control it, we know what to do with it and how to talk about it. The ultimate goal of living in verbal reality if to be safe.


    You might come to admit that playing safe in verbal reality is also boring, flat, lifeless, and somewhat dead. Reality is squashed into a 2D-video with no flavors, no touch, no odors, fake sounds, fake colors, and no relationship to you. Videos are one way streets. You are relating to them, not them to you. Verbal reality is living in a flat, black & white world when the possibility of a round, technicolor world is waiting for us out there.


    The round technicolor world can be reached through Experiential Reality. Experiential reality comes by letting the experience lead. The experience comes first without meaning, without story.


    Experiential Reality

    Do you really taste your coffee? Do you really taste anything?

    Self-help books will tell you to "feel your toothbrush when brushing your teeth, feel the water flowing on your skin when you shower, and taste your food when eating", what they don't tell you is the purpose: to enter experiential reality.


    Entering experiential reality happens without story. Experiential reality happens before your mind makes a story about what is happening now, like "I am drinking coffee", "What should I do later?", "This coffee is not great" or "This coffee is delicious".


    Every one of those stories blocks us from the experience "coffee". Even naming the coffee "coffee" limits us, because the moment we name coffee "coffee" our mind gets a grip on it and we know what to do with it: drink it!


    In experiential reality, they are an unlimited number of possibilities about how to relate to a cup of coffee: make an art piece out of it, offer it to somebody else, feed it to somebody else, warm your hands around it, just order it and look at it with amazement that thousands of people have been involved in making this thing happen, throw it on the waiter's white shirt, heal your broken nail in the healing water infused coffee, and on and on and on


    In verbal reality, only one: a cup of coffee is made to be drunk and then talked about. If the coffee is not great, then we can complain and we have something to do. If the coffee is great, then we can talk about coffee and what a great coffee is and the best coffee we ever tasted and so on...


    And we are in our mind. We miss out on the experience of our 4 other bodies. Each of our other 4 bodies are also having the experience "coffee" but we do not let ourselves experience that experience. The practice is to experience the experience "coffee" in all 5 bodies.


    If you don't taste your coffee, how can you taste the skin of your partner?

    If you don't experience your coffee, how can you experience Love with your partner?


    The practice is to experience the full experience of "coffee" in your 5 bodies even for one second and then let it get bigger.


    What is bigger? What we can name or what we can experience?

    In which Universe would you rather live?

    The one in which you can only express and experience what you have

    a name for?

    The one in which you can express and experience what is possible to experience?


    This is not a rhetorical question.

    It is a life choice.


    It is a choice between being half-dead and walking through life like a zombie

    or being alive and experiencing Life as unknown experience.

  • Excerpted From The Genius and the Goddess by Aldous Huxley

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    "What a gulf between IMpression and EXpression! That's our ironic fate - to have Shakespearean feelings and (unless by some billion-to-one chance we happen to BE Shakespeare) to talk about them like automobile salesmen, or teen-agers, or college professors. We practice alchemy in reverse - touch gold and it turns into lead; touch pure lyrics of experience, and they turn into the verbal equivalents of tripe and hogwash."


    "Aren't you being unduly optimistic about experience?" I questioned. "Is it always so golden and poetical?"


    "Intrinsically golden! Poetical by its essential nature. But of course if you're steeped in the tripe and hogwash dished out by the moulders of public opinion, you'll tend automatically to pollute your impressions at the source; you'll re-create the world in the image of your own notions - and of course your own notions are everybody else's notions; so the world you live in will consist of the Lowest Common Denominator of the local culture. But the original poetry is always there - always."

  • What Experiential Reality Looks Like... (XPERREAL.02)

    experiencing the food without naming it

    experiencing the love and care that someone would put in preparing food

    experiencing being at the table with one's family

    experiencing being alive


    Notice the different of experience of Dr. Marvin's - hooked into the story of himself (good doctor, good wife, good children, good house) and cannot experience the experience 'dinner with my family'

    and Bob's experience (Bill Murray) - in the present without stories about who he is, or what is appropriate or not.


    Experiential reality let the experience lead without words, and without stories.

    Bob experientially tasting dinner...

  • Dead Worlds

    Dead Worlds by Clinton Callahan

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    Dead Worlds by Clinton Callahan

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    Dead Worlds by Clinton Callahan

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  • Enter Experiential Reality


    Taste Your Coffee (XPERREAL.03)

    Or tea, or kombucha, or kefir (I do not recommend Coke)

    When making or ordering a cup of coffee (or tea, or juice or else if you do not drink coffee), remind yourself that you are practice entering experiential reality.

    When the coffee is ready, place it in front of you.

    First, look at it for one entire minute without any story about it, not even that it is a cup of coffee. Look at it with utter amazement.

    When you are ready, pick up the cup and place it on your lips and have the experience in your 5 bodies of the liquid flowing in your mouth and down your throat and so on. Do not make a story about your experience. Just have the experience.


    Do this experience each time you drink a cup of coffee.

    Notice how long you can stay in experiential reality.

    Notice what your mind is trying to pull you to.

    Write this down in your Beep! Book.

  • About Experiencing Women (XPERREAL.04)

    Experiencing Being a Woman, or Experiencing Being With a Woman,

    Don Juan De Marco puts it in words:

    "Every women is a mystery to be solved... There is no metaphor to describe experiencing Love with a woman"


    As woman experiencing herself

    can you stand in being a mystery to be unfolded?

    Being in the unknown of who you are,

    because you are Everything and therefore can be Anything


    As men experiencing woman,

    can you seriously let go of the spacious idea that you can own Everything

    can you let your experiential reality of a Woman lead you

    to discover who she is while she discovers it herself?

    can you be the violinist that let the violin speak through your fingers?

    It must be true for Men too...

  • Multidimensionality of Experiential Reality

    coming soon

  • Further Experiments

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    Here is an experiment for making use of experiential reality. It has to do with the way you touch, especially when you are touching your partner.

    The next time you are with your partner ask them for a moment of stillness. Tell them that you want to do an experiment. Ask them if you can touch them. If they say yes, then reach over and touch their skin the way you have always touched their skin. That is to say, touch their skin in verbal reality. A touch performed in verbal reality stops at the surface of the object because you are touching a known object. You know the name and the form of the thing you are touching, a hand for example, a cheek, or an arm. That thing you touch is an object with a surface where it starts and stops, and that is obviously where you are touching the object: on its surface. This is touch in verbal reality – we touch to confirm what we already know.

    Now take your hand away and shift into Experiential Reality. Shift out of your head into all four bodies. Shift out of concept into experience. It can help if you slowly, delicately rub the tips of your fingers together and feel only that sensation. This helps to shift out of your Box’s ongoing stories into the tiniest moment of a wordless minimized now. Then, without knowing what it is that you are touching, slowly reach over and “touch all the way through” the skin of your partner so that wherever you are touching them you are touching the whole of them all at the same time. Your touch is making deep contact. Avoid using images of bones, muscles, blood and veins. Visualizing images only wakens the mind again. Instead, do not know what you touch, only that you are 'touching through,' touching wholeness, touching being, touching the one you love. You may notice that you touch your partner with a field of touching even before you make physical contact with their skin. And when you do touch their skin your touch no longer stops there. By touching the hand or the cheek you are touching everywhere in them all at the same time. You may notice that your touch is firmer than usual and strokes less. Then imagine hugging all the way through instead of only at the surface. Then move slowly and try it. This is called “touching through,” a different kind of touching that you do through experiential reality.

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  • A Story of Entering Experiential Reality

    Verbal reality creates the wall of your numbness.

    The question I am asking is this: Are you ready to come back to life? Are you willing to tear down the wall?

    Imagine the following demonstration. A courageous but somewhat anxious man volunteers to step to the front of the training room. I ask him to face the audience and pay close attention to what happens next. He is keenly alert as I gently press my fist into the side of his upper arm.
    After a moment I ask, “What happened?”
    He says, “You touched my arm.”
    I wait a moment to see if anything else comes from this shining exhibition of twenty-first century intelligence. I have waited a hundred times during this same demonstration. Nothing more ever does.
    The man has been to school. He assumes he has found the correct answer and waits for the teacher’s confirmation.
    I turn to the audience and say, “This is a perfect demonstration of verbal reality.”


    The audience has no idea what I am talking about, yet. They have also been to school. Each person sitting in the audience is locked into the same verbal prison as this man. To their mind, what happened is exactly what the man said. I touched his arm. How could it be anything else? Of course that is what happened.
    Then I ask the man to stay with me as I draw and explain the Map of Verbal Reality vs Experiential Reality on a flip chart board. I carefully make each distinction and at the end I ask him if he understands the map.


    He says, “Yes.”
    I say, “Good. I would like you now to shift from verbal reality to experiential reality. Are you ready?”
    He considers this for a moment and then says, “Yes.” His answer is tainted with no small amount of uncertainty. That uncertainty creates the possibility of the shift. The secret of making shifts is to commit before you know how.
    I have the man face the audience again. After a moment I press my fist into his arm exactly as I did a few moments before.
    There is a pause. He seems to be noticing something. His eyes slightly glaze over, wandering off in a manner that is unusual for him. His attention goes inward. He sinks into his body, falling away from the hypnotic grip of his intellectual vocalizations.
    There aren’t thoughts in this man anymore. He has gotten out of his head. The shift to experiential reality has occurred. In this very moment he is experiencing his experience, and the space of the entire room shifts.
    The audience feels it. There is awed silence. People look on in wonder. A new man is standing before them now where the verbal reality man used to be. Especially those who have known this man for years are touched.
    This new man seems somehow deeper and richer, more sensuous, less defined, more flexible, less confined, more alive, less predictable. This new man clearly accesses a vaster world of possibility than he did before. He is no longer straight jacketed by his vocabulary. One by one the audience members regain a long-forgotten hope for themselves. If this man can reclaim his direct experience of the world, perhaps they can too. All of this happens in a sustained wordless moment.


    Then I gently ask the man, “What happened?” It is the identical question I asked him before.
    He does not answer immediately. His intellectual body is no longer in charge so he does not have to answer according to the logic of his mind. He can wait and answer the question if and when and how he chooses. He has his power back, having repossessed it from the tyranny of his intellect.
    He seems slightly perturbed by my request for words, but then something happens. A new function emerges in him – a function whereby he can stay centered in the wordlessness of his direct experience while at the same time he can use a portion of his intellect to grope around for some sort of words. He will use the words as building blocks to construct a bridge directly from his body to the audience’s body so they can share the experience of his experience.


    He takes a full-bodied breath and says,

    “An impulse started in my right arm and flooded into my chest like a swarm of happy honey bees, humming and vibrating around in there. Pressure waves echoed down through my abdomen, waking up my inner cells, tingling down my legs and arms. Ripples are bouncing back and forth through my features, like a song sung free and loud in the mountains. There is orangeness and sweetness in my fingertips. Also in my toes. I still feel it. My earlobes are warm. My hair is electrified with aliveness charge. I can see more clearly, as if a fog has melted away, as if my eyes perceive in new sorts of frequencies. I can see love in you people who are looking at me now. We are in this experience together and it is okay for me to share about it, even if what I say sounds completely crazy.”



    Tears are rolling out of the man’s eyes.

    It does not bother him.

    He could keep painting the experience but he chooses not to.

    He stands there vulnerable and delighted in his experiential wonder, looking at the people as if he had never seen faces before. He has missed this for so long.

    The door is again open wide to a world he has not explored since childhood,

    a world that was almost forgotten.

    He takes slow deep breaths and can’t stop smiling.

    He looks over at me with gratitude, not for me but for the experience he is having, and the audience spontaneously starts clapping with joy and appreciation.
    This is experiential reality.

    Are you ready for this?


  • P. S. It Is All True

    You probably won’t believe what I am going to say.
    You probably won’t believe it because I am using words.
    Words won’t impact you enough for you to get it
    Unless you have already been there.
    My question to you is this: are you willing to recall a memory?
    Because you have already been there.
    And without having to think about it much you already know
    That it is all true.
    All the legends of gods and goddesses,
    Of radiant golden floating temples made of marble columns and flowing silk,
    Of Archetypal angels and demons, upperworlds and underworlds,
    Of a sanctuary where uninterrupted being-with can occur.
    It’s all true.
    All the subtle energetic levels of multidimensional fluid reality
    All of the best ideas communicated here
    The wildest most outrageous inconceivable ideas in StartOver.xyz
    Are all true.
    Waiting to be explored, experienced, employed by you.
    Does it matter?
    Is it all true?
    You can go directly to the core of the mythical labyrinth
    And float in the being of the One
    Any time that you achieve floating conditions.
    It is not personal.
    The opportunity never goes away.
    Long before you were born and long after you die
    The opportunity is there waiting.
    She is there waiting
    The One. She is waiting.
    The beautiful, quiveringly tender, limitlessly accepting One.
    The One with wisdom and knowing beyond words.
    The One who waits, who can only wait
    Until you the Man become a stillness sanctuary where She can rest
    And “be-with” the brilliant radiance of Her being,
    The glow of Her presence, the Countenance of Her raw wild power,
    And Her peacefulness that surpasses all understanding.
    Words are far too crude and solid to talk about this.
    Even thoughts get in the way.
    So much of what happens falls through the gaps between thoughts.
    Nonetheless, it is all hereby confirmed to be true.
    Now, tell me this. What are you going to do about it?

    – Clinton Callahan, in Building Love That Lasts, previously titled Radiant Joy Brilliant Love